January 2010
4 posts
Last night was good.
godloljk:
I love you, Katherine motherfucking Cline.
LAST NIGHT WAS GOOD.
I love you more Rachel motherfucking Katherine Ficke<3
Bold what you have done
I have baked a cake. I have driven more than ten minutes without a permit or license. I have gone out in public naked. I have laughed until I cried. I have been in a car accident. I have kissed someone I just met. I have ridden in a taxi. I have played The Sims. I have played GTA. I have gotten lost in a mall. I have thought about killing myself. I have sworn at my parents in anger. I have broke...
I haven't written in so long
It seems like I don’t have time to write down my depressing thoughts anymore. That is not important to me anymore. I live my life, do what I have to do, and get on with it. I don’t feel I need to fill you all in on the broken heart inside my chest.
But I will continue to write :)
November 2009
30 posts
11/28/09 3:30 am
going outside for a couple cigarettes
then back inside to drink some more, yay
someone talk to me, damn.
Once upon a time there was Candy and Dan. Things were very hot that year. All the wax was melting in the trees. He would climb balconies, climb everywhere, do anything for her, oh Danny boy. Thousands of birds, the tiniest birds, adorned her hair. Everything was gold. One night the bed caught fire. He was handsome and a very good criminal. We lived on sunlight and chocolate bars. It was the...
Going, going, going, gone.
You keep pulling me back for a let down. Everyday I dream of the way things were. Its mind boggling how much things have changed. How every single thing is different from what they used to be. How my days of the week have even been effected by all of this. My thoughts are all a blur and my tears seem to wash up any luck I had for getting through this. My cheeks are drenched with the salty taste of...
Watchshit. i can’t stop crying.
Listen
ROBO
I don’t know what to do anymore. no one is up to help me. no one is here to help me. today is the day that i should be out with that one person that i used to be with. that i love more than the world. we should be out celebrating our one fucking year. we should be getting snow cones and ice cream and weed and presents and food and love. we should be together. but instead she will be with her...
fucked up. november 25th. wow. one year.
I miss fallling asleep wrapped around your arms; so tight that i never feel lost. i never feel like im alone. i miss the arms of the angel that changed my life. i miss singing you to sleep, i miss our long car rides. I miss watching you sleep, watching the drool drip from the corners of your mouth. I miss waking up to see your face and knowing that you love me. Its been one year and im still stuck...
OLD
Smoke flying swiftly through the air. while it slowly takes over my brain; and i’m finally set free. the elaborate colors mix and become one while they swarm me, making me feel numb and on top of the world. as the smoke begins to grow, i feel infinite. as if no one had ever hurt me before. i began to hear a soft melody and its almost as if the noise was advancing throughout my body leaving...
Rollercoasters and Swing Sets.
My lips are still dirty from the night before. The saliva is still washing through my body that tastes of you. I still feel you through my bones. I’m lost in the life I had so long ago. Swimming through the milky way of imaginations and happy things. And I only have one question; Where’s the exit to this amusement park?
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The tears stream down my face, running down my neck and smashing into my collar bone. The salty taste spewing into the back of my throat; feeling as though a tidal wave crashed before me and brought me to my sore and hollow hands and knees. I think of you and my heart becomes smaller. I think of you and I feel cold. I think of you as the tears cataclysmically take over my eye sight. My insides...
Fuck you and the choices you have made.
Every breath I take, my insides ache. I am in so much pain and I don’t even know how to handle it. So much changes have been made from a week ago. Now is the time that I have lost everything. I have lost every little thing that meant something to me and it is impossible to carry it back in my arms. I wish you knew how terrible you have made me feel. How much you have killed me. How much my...
Dearest Sarah,
This is my final goodbye to you. These words you will read are the last words that you will ever hear from me. I wished you happiness every single day that I was gone, and when I came back and realized you found it, I regretted every single moment. I miss you, but that will never change. I am upset with you, but I do not hate you. I hope to never hate you. But it seems as the salty...
To, you
I feel that I will never be satisfied until I have you back in my arms. I feel as though I will never be able to say I am happy, until the day you’re standing by my side. I miss you immensely, don’t you see? The world seems to spin so fast and we just can’t catch up. But I’m trying. I’m trying to make it. I’m trying to understand and comprehend how this could...
Robotripping ass
The world as we know it is falling apart. The crust around our “secluded bubble” is thinning and the “protection” we once thought we all had has become a thin slice of fear and anger. Each day the sun lasts a little longer and the nights are a a little shorter. We have become immune to the fact that drug dealers can’t even walk the streets without without feeling...
I love/miss Rickle McFickle
godloljk:
katherinecline:
but she doesn’t miss me :(
I miss you more than anything, Katherine. I wish every fucking day I still had my best friend back. You were all I had, and it’s been hell knowing you’re gone. Breaking down every moment I had to fight through everything completely alone and in the dark, I’ve missed you so much. I love you Katherine Sanford Cline.
I miss you too. I...
11:11
Sometimes, wishes just aren’t enough
I love/miss Rickle McFickle
but she doesn’t miss me :(
Cigarettes and alcohol
are my two best friends these days. Their all I can do now.
Fuck sobriety. 6 months, hell yeah.
New beginnings
Oh how you laughed at my complete lack of grace. But I could not recall a more perfect fall Cause when I looked up into your eyes, it didn’t hurt at all. And I thought, be still my heart, this could be a brand new start, with you. And it will be clear, if I wake up and you’re still here with me in the morning.
The days get longer
I’m past the point of breaking down. I’m past the stage that I thought I would never get out of. I’m finally learning to smile again. Learning to feel again. The novacaine is now beginning to fall off the weak bones my body has produced in these 6 months of time. The ache in my heart is subsiding but still lingers in the pit of my nerve system. I have come back to the world, back...